WOW... for today and yesterday has quite a been an emotional ride. Honestly, when seeing you hugging your uncles and aunties, my eyes was starting to water up, and watching your brother (Mohd)... really cause a tear trickle down my chick... while doing my best to control it from pouring down.. was just hard enough.. by the fact that seeing your favorite nephew screaming and calling for you... "Auntie!!!! Auntie!!! Mommy... Auntie!!!"...
To write this blog dedicated for you, it much harder than what i've written before... I mean... to write a post just for someone... (which i never written) and being myself (which i rarely... or not good at expressing my thoughts in the form of words... well i prefer expressing thru words...) so yea... this is hard. Recalling all the sweet memories... bitter sweet.. yeah... just made my post this time EVEN harder... Though someone requested i post this particular blog... i will... cause she requested.
So... where should i start?? Oh yeah...
My first memory of this person.. was at her house... raya... (the earliest raya i can ever remember laa... lol)... that why.. when i looked at the old pictures (our young... adorable... cute... picture of baby-hood and childhood) its just so nostalgic... honestly.. i dont remember you bulling me.. though i remember if we were together... its either you follow me around.. or i follow you around.. to your room... mana-mana je lah kan... hahahaha.... though among the picture... is the picture... like my mom told us.. like we were around 1 and 2 years old... raya... and you were wearing red blue small flowers baju kurung... i find that always stick into my mind... (even though i dont really recall that in my memory...) haih... that picture... i label as a start of our long... relationship as cousins... huh?? haha. xD
Not to forget... what our parents has to tell about us.. ingat tak... your dad not my mistaken... about.. "alah... tunang je terus... than kawin" hahaha... i think that was 1999 ke 1998... hahhaa... lepas tu.... menggila la i kan... bagi tau semua orang.. -.-" but the funny thing... ko pun sama kan.. xP (i mean you tak marah kot.. i acted that way)... xD thats stupid lor.. we were so young kan that time... =) so what about teenage years pulak... huhuhu
Well.. to summarize our teenage years... would be... very up's and down's right?? early teens... we had a fight... which partly is was my fault.. (i did apologize...) tapi ko lebih-lebih kan... xP also some weird moments... hahaha.. (for my part je la... donno bout her... she RARELY tells me.. xP) anyway... i remember a few la... like the time you were a pro at reflexology... the best i've ever had... hahhaa... FREE katakan.. huhu... and also... the time you expose to me with one korean movie... My Sassy Girl.... 2006.. =\ anyway... it was sweet of you to do such things to me...
Hmm... which i sometimes i take things for granted.. i mean in my teenage life... you were always there for me.. as a cousin... as a friend... maybe that why i had a HUGE crush on you... (since my love language would be Quality Time)... though our relationship was like on-off kinda thing kan... i mean... raya jumpa... then tak lama lepas tu.... lupa... (or loss interst la kan... haha) Tapi after form 4 (you were form 5) we start to be far apart... entah la.. then last year... takde la rapat sangat kan. haih. we spoke less.. like we went on our separate ways... which sometime... when i'm all alone... and needed someone to talk too... i dare not disturb you anymore...
But everything has its purpose right, i mean... seeing you yesterday and today... make me understand why our relationship (cousin's ok!!) should never be lost nor broken... the moment we had together from small till the final moments before you left.. i cherish it... and i will always wait for you here (kalo i tak datang sana la kan.. huhu)... though i only wish one thing in return... that you would treat me the way i treat you from now.. till forever... xD
So here it is Aishah...
A tribute... a memories... a piece of time... that will be immortalize in this blog.. i hope this would be enough..
All that i write.. all comes from deep inside myself.. and from Allah swt... and for all the wrong doings... which comes from inside myself also... i wish utter forgiveness... and i hope you would forgive me... as i forgive you in every single things.. part in you...
xD
So a post for you...
SITI AISHAH - CUZZY
